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I believe this is the place where I document my journey. Hello. I thought these issues were in the past, however, they revealed themselves through my insecurity, sexual fantasies, an affair, my huge EGO trying to make this man (a sex addict himself) do what I wanted him to do, getting invloved with a man with his character flaws and issues, feeling worthless, and depressed, making me act out in very mean violent ways thus making me feel awful about myself and then wanting this man to make me feel better by trying to get him to reaffirm my worth thus repeating the cycle. It is horrible. I am completly and utterly a love addict. It has been my issue almost all my life. There was a period in my life right before I got married where I thought I was just fine. After 10 years of marriage and 2 kids ... THE ISSUES are back. So I am here. I don't want to do this for a week or two and then I feel better and I stop doing the work. I have to try and complete this. I feel like I start so many things I don't finish. I really want to finish. Thanks for having this site.

Namaste ~*~

Hi Faithservant


this is where you record your responses to the lessons and post your analysis of yourself and your issues
thus you can refer back and coaches and mentors can drop in to provide feedback
press the reply key not the new topic thus keeping your posts in one thread

you can also use the community support forum to ask for help or for answers to specific questions, but please read the posting rules and dont use the forums as "chat room sites"



not pre-judging but it is likely that your addiction has been with you all of the time even when you were abstaining from acting out



if you really do want to improve your life and to recover from your addiction then you are at a good place to make that wish reality
Commit , fully and completely
work through the lessons and understand them , if you miss something ask on the help forum , assistance is always on hand
coaches and mentors are likely to drop by occasionally but if not, don't worry as this is generally a good indicator that you are on the right path

the path is long and difficult but it is well proven and you are not alone
we usually suggest completing about 3 lessons a week but spending time every day posting and reading
get to know your addiction and see yourself with honesty and openness

remember to work at your own pace and its not a race indeed some consider recovery to be a journey rather than a destination

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Remember recovery is more than abstinence
Every transition begins with an ending
stay healthy keep safe
Kenzo