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1. I desire to have a healthy relationship that does not include pornography, compulsive masturbation, lying, omissions, and dishonesty.
2. I want to be a person who is respected for the way I live my life.
3. I want a partner in my life who will respect me and my boundries and not try to control me.
4. I do not want to end up alone with no one in my life.
5. I want to break family history and actually have a healthy relationship and be monogamous.
6. I am tired of the chaos of codependent relationships and their destructive nature.
7. If I am alone, I want to be able to still be happy without the addiction making me feel as if I need it.
8. I want to be free of the desire to automatically objectify women.
9. I want to be able to talk to women and not automatically undress them with my eyes and fantasize about them.
10. Most of all I want to be loved for who I am and not what I am pretending to be.
11. I want someone in my life who know the real me and is not afraid to love me despite my craziness and background.

I would tell myself, that as life has happened, it does not mean that it has to repeat itself. Learn from your pain, for it will teach you right and wrong. You instinctively know good and bad, but it has been damaged. Life is not abuse, rejection, humiliation. It is about love and happiness. There are times when the pain did not end or abandonment lasted too long. Your life in the future is what you make of it. Do not dwell on the past. Learn from it and seek the happiness that life has to offer. Women do love and not control, women do not seek domination over you or to destroy you. Use the tools and God to change your life to something meaningful, let go of the anger, shame, guilt. YOU DO NOT NEED AN ABUSIVE WOMAN TO RUIN YOUR LIFE!! LET GO OF THE PAST AND START ANEW!!.