Why
the Relationship Must Change
A frequent
desire shared by those caught in the aftermath of their partner's
addiction is the desire to get things 'back to the way they used
to be'. To the way things were before the life-altering discovery.
Before the lies. Before the awareness. Back to a time when they
were still basing that relationship on the person they thought their
partner to be. When passion and intimacy helped define the love
that was being shared. When hopes and dreams seemed almost too perfect.
When their love seemed real.
By this
point in the workshop, you (and all who go on to discover the true
nature of addiction) come to realize that that is the last thing
they would want. To go back to such an existence? Back to the secrecy?
The ignorance? The lies? To a partner living separate lives? To
playing a role in an addiction? Absolutely not. Going 'back' is
not an option. For you, or your relationship. You will, for the
rest of your life, carry the memories of what you have experienced...of
what you have endured. And no amount of time or your partner's 'personal
growth' will change that.
And this
is good.
For you
to achieve the healing necessary to re-establish a healthy relationship
with your partner (or develop a healthy relationship with a new
partner), you must embrace the fact that you are not the same person
that you once were. That you will never go back to that naive, innocent,
weak person. 'Weak' referring to your ability to protect
your life through your existing values and boundaries. For the rest
of your life, you will carry the experiences of having been forced
through one of the most devastating traumas that a relationship
can endure. And you will carry the realization that you came through
it with your head held high and your life and values intact. In
fact, you came through it stronger than you have ever been. This
is an amazing accomplishment that will serve you well in many areas
of your life.
Yes, you
were hurt. Yes, you were disoriented. Yes, you likely felt inadequate.
Helpless. Hopeless. But in that blur, you found the strength to
regain control. You found the courage to stand up and fight for
a better life. For a better you. These are good, good things. And
they are experiences that will positively influence every relationship
you have from here on out--especially in regards to issues such
as addiction.
So,
getting your relationship back to the way it used to be? Ludicrous.
Your relationship has changed. Every relationship that you will
ever be a part of has changed. Why? Because you are smarter, stronger
and more aware than you have ever been. You have more experiences
to rely on. More skills to invoke. Couple these changes with an
established value and boundary system and you have a powerful foundation
to bring to any relationship.
Note:
this notion of change is being addressed solely from the partner's
perspective. In the Couple's Workshop, these issues are expanded
to include the persective of those in recovery as well. They, too,
must embrace the reality of acceptance and change...